Who was I ?
Posted on: Thursday, May 28, 2009
- In: General | Thoughts
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I was splashing my face with cold water when I looked into the mirror. I was taken aback, with the sight that met my eyes. Somebody of you maybe letting their imaginations run wild and figuring out that it was an alien or something that I saw, Sorry to disappoint you but that’s not what I saw. Staring a bit at the face, It took me a while to sink in that the eyes boring back at me were mine. But why was I getting a weird feeling as if I were suddenly trapped in someone else body ?
I felt like I was not what the mirror says I am; Knew quite well the face and eyes, yet felt alien to me. I suddenly had an urge to touch my face and see for myself if that’s what even the mirror shows. Too afraid to discover otherwise I just kept staring that face. I suddenly felt cold, the cold had nothing to do with the heavy snow outside, It was cold that came from deep inside me, fear dare I say.
Rummaging through my memory to remember what my latest picture looked like, I grew a little relaxed to conclude thats its me. ME ! But why did I had to fight my mind to say out loud that its me ? With still that creepy feeling tugging my senses I suddenly turned away from the mirror. Satisfied that atleast I am not staring at that face anymore, I was shocked to realise the effort it took not to turn back and check if the face still was there.
Having debated quite a lot of whether I should just walk away or just have one last look … I decided to go with the latter one.Gaining an upper hand over my senses I drew in deep breaths and turned slowly, very slowly towards the mirror. And there it was … It was definitely me. This time I was more than sure its me, minus the creepyness I felt awhile back. It felt as normal as it felt everytime I looked at myself in mirror.
Why ? Why was I troubled at first with my sight ? It was almost as if I could see my soul but in a different body. It was nonetheless a scary position to be in .. Have you ever been there ?
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4 Responses to "Who was I ?"
Friday, May 29, 2009 at '11:32 am'
ACtually, a few years ago a very similar thing happened to me too. i called it an ‘out of body’ experience. was very weird.
maybe that’s what it feels like when the soul leaves the body.
Friday, May 29, 2009 at '8:11 pm'
I had that feeling when after three months I suddenly shaved off my beard completely… it was spooky!
Saturday, May 30, 2009 at '8:48 pm'
Marahm … Oh really ??!! I was hoping never to experience it again ever 😦
Dreamlife .. I agree, It was definitely weird.
Good thought though, Haven’t considered about it earlier
Haleem .. 🙂
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 at '10:25 am'
Sure, I’ve been there, and the older you get, the more often you’ll be there, too!
The good news is that you’ll get used to it, and eventually even embrace it.