Cher ami,

Posted by: Maryam on: Monday, August 4, 2008

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A Phone Call today stirred my memory. I suddenly time-travelled years back, while I was in College; The Best days of my Life. The days when we were very young to be responsible and too old to be kids, A tricky stage in Human’s life that is, not knowing where we actually belong ? Among Kids or among adults ??

Although we had our little gang of friends, I had a special friend just like any of us. I wouldnt share with you her name, But would really give you a virtual tour of our friendship. We were inseparable, Now You might think we started as the same. Actually we dint, We both actually were from the competitive schools and hence carried the rivalry with us, which eventually couldnt stand the pull of Love.

She was the one who actually stirred the feeling of friendship in my heart, which I still carry. We were almost like One cannot exist without the other, She protected me whenever I needed her to and so did I. I stood for her in dier needs and so did she. We fought with people together, we enjoyed together, We bought things together, We made a Bond which underwent the burnt of jealousy, envy but still shone over our hearts.

Its been two years now since we spoke to each other, Not because we dont want to, but because we somehow couldnt. I curse that day when I kept on postponing calling her when we finished college and were busy with Admissions in Degree Colleges. If Only .. I wouldnt have done that. If only I wouldnt have betrayed our friendship by not involving her in my decision, If only I dint had done such mistakes, If only I dint had to cut her off, If only I could change the past, If only I still enjoyed the warmth of our friendship. If Only Darling….., I wouldnt have let you go.

I am sorry if you couldnt understand what actually happened between us, I assure you, you cannot. As its a personal matter which I a not comfortable sharing, but the guilt kills me inside, where I ask her forgiveness every time I remember her. I am sorry Hon, You know I would have done anything I could to change the Past, But I cant. I lost you, with my own Damn will …

I believe Life would once again make us cross our paths again, for which I cannot wait any longer, but look forward to everyday. You know I love you, and always will. You were truly truly my Cher ami (Dear Freind).

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