I feel ….

Posted by: Maryam on: Sunday, March 23, 2008

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Sunshine creeps in through my windows, illuminating my room. Trying to awaken me, deep in sleep, When i feel a soft hand of my Mamma(thats what i call my mom) on me, moving the curled strand of hair from my face and asking me to wake up in her soft and warm voice, Bending down to kiss my cheeks. I hear Papa reciting Quran(His daily routine) somewhere far with a loud voice. Wanting to see my Mamma’s face, i open my eyes. I then realise my mistake, with a tear in my eye. I shouldnt have opened my eyes and felt Mamma and Papa a bit more, without been greedy to see them ……. 😦
There’s no Mamma or Papa here, But are definitely there in my dreams and in my imagination …..

I Feel HOME-SICK ……. !!!!!!!!! I miss my home-country more than ever, I was unaware that i would miss my home-place like i do now, while i was leaving it. Even if i would have known, It wouldnt have made much difference to me, for I prefer not to live far distant from Z . Everything was well at first, enjoyed the new place, loved its weather, greenery and am now out of those eyes for Canada, I wanna see my India with those eyes now …. Sigh

There’s no harm in deciding to live somewhere far from our birth-place, but most of the times we arent fully aware of the price we willingly pay for it at first. What about those times when all we need is a hug from our loved ones, when we miss them dearly, of those times when we weep not realising until we feel the wetness on our cheeks, the times when you so badly want to see your loved ones for real…….. Gosh !!! I cannot take it anymore.

I am not saying that i am not happy or anything like that, Z is always very nice to me but I miss my parents dearly. I realised, I did not appreciate their support and love when i had it, as a daughter. Now, Life has moved on, and here i am, a Wife of someone, daughter-in-law to someone, and am no more a daughter…… !!!! Did i tell you enough that I love you Ma and Pa ? Did i always listen to you, For i am scared that I did not and often fought with you too ……. Sigh. Just wanna let you know – I love you. 

Well then, Here is the audio of one of my favourite songs by the musical mentor A.R.Rahman, on the same subject from the movie Swades. Hope you would like it too…. 😀

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